I'm Tapping Out!

Can we please for one second just take the time to reflect on the fact that no one has got it all figured out? Everyone is figuring things out and winging it and life comes in peaks and valleys, highs and lows, seasons, waves and any other metaphor you can think of where the only consistent is indeed change!

Today, I am done. I have zero motivation. I am not getting any where on Instagram or coaching. I have been at this for a couple of years now and really only barely covered expenses. I am fed up and lost. I still don't know exactly who I help or what I help them with (probably the reason I am not getting so many clients) and well... i just want to tap out... forget about it all and get a proper job like everyone else.

In general I am someone who repeats things like "you make your own luck", and "every day's a school day", and il occasionally add in a "everything happens for a reason". I find all of these statements to be, for the most part, pretty true and uplifting. I also read books like "Get Sh*t Done", and "Atomic Habits" and my current book "The happiness project"... and use them to enhance my own life and the people I work with. Right now, I believe that the luck I have made for myself is coming in the form of self-discipline and knowledge from reading those books...

Separate the facts from the assumptions:

I know that:

- I am in the time of the month where these feelings are normal (I learnt that from Dr Mindy Pelz's book 'Fast Like a Girl'.

- I have not set myself up for success: I have been going to bed late, watching tv instead of reading my book, and generally not looking after myself.

- I have been eating okay I suppose but it could have been better... less sugar and more healthy snacks.

- I have had a traumatic experience this week when I had to put my one year old and her father in an ambulance helicopter after she drank some glass cleaner.

- I am exhausted after starting teaching a fitness class again after two years off.

There are more things which I think could be contributing to my mood so here is where I rely on the self discipline...

I am choosing to focus on something else for today (Friday), and the upcoming weekend. I vow to set myself up better with some healthier habits; go to bed on time, read my book, stay off Netflix, and eat better food. I will show myself some compassion and start thinking about a strategy for the next few weeks when my mood improves.

This is exactly what I mean by creating your own luck and one day I hope to look back on this post and realise that showing up everyday in the same way and 100% will not work. Sometimes you have to show up with 1%, and just keep your head above the water and that's okay!!!

Signing off as Penny Cook,

Have a great weekend everyone!